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On this evening of June 30th, 2006 we find ourselves desperate to search
for answers to help save our baby girl’s life.
Since the day she was born, mountains have been moved and miracles have
taken place. For these reasons, we are
eager and anxious to write….We only hope whoever is reading this
feels motivated to help find an answer for our
daughter that wants to live.
Reese Alexandra Gray was born
on February 4th 2006. I had her prematurely at 30 weeks without any knowledge
of
how sick she was. My 20 week ultrasound showed that everything was right
on track and we had a healthy baby girl to
arrive 20 weeks later. On the evening of February 3rd I knew I was going
into labor. Prior to performing the emergency C-
section, the doctors tried medications to prevent premature birth but
Reese didn’t respond to any of those medications
because she knew the only way she was going to make it in this world was
to get out. Before being wheeled into the
operating room, the doctors prepared us for the worse. Reese had a very
slim chance of making it. We can remember
everything happening so fast and the only emotion we felt was fear of
never holding our baby girl alive.
The first sign of Reese's strong
will to live was at delivery when she beat all the odds and was delivered
alive. At the
time of delivery, over 400 ml’s of fluid was taken off of her severely
hydropic body. All we knew was that she was full of
fluid. Little did we know how sick she really was. Our only other pregnancy
was routine, and we feel so blessed to have
our healthy, full-of-life 2 yr. old boy in our lives.
Reese was born with non-immune
hydrops. The cause is yet still unknown. She was immediately placed on
a high
frequency ventilator to help her breath and maintain positive pressure
in her lungs to try and prevent collapsing. Reese
developed chylothorax and has had up to three different chest tubes in
her little body. She was dumping up to 800 cc’s
of fluid out of her tiny chest cavity almost every day. Reese has received
albumin, plasma, blood, steroids, and countless
other life sustaining measures to keep her alive.
Despite her poor prognosis
and all odds, Reese has not given up, and it was her fight and will to
live that gave us all,
including her doctors and nursing staff in the NICU, hope and determination
to go to the ends of the earth to save her.
How could anyone do any less when a baby fights to live like Reese?
After one month in NICU, Reese
was moved to her own private NICU room, where she currently remains. Reese
continued to drain massive amounts of fluid from her body. She was a little
over a month old and we still had never seen
her open her eyes. Exactly 36 days post delivery we were prepared to say
good-bye to our baby girl. Reese was so full
of fluid there was no more room for it to go and not enough strength for
her to breath with the pressure. She was so
severely swollen that she had to have surgery to place an IV close to
her heart. As her parents, we wanted to poke her
with a needle to allow the fluid to exit. With that thought, her doctor
decided to put a 20-gauge IV in her scalp. This is
truly the only thing that saved our baby girl’s life and currently
is what still keeps her alive. That night we saw Reese’s
respiratory status improve and her vital signs go up.
From that day and now 5 months
later Reese continues on her path of daily ups and downs, but her condition
continues
to improve and her doctors stay amazed. Reese finally made it off the
high frequency ventilator and onto a conventional
ventilator, but it took many attempts for it to give her the support she
needed. She then went from conventional
ventilator to a cpap machine (continuous positive airway pressure) and
then from the cpap machine to high flow nasal
canula. The thought of her ever getting extubated was thought impossible,
but yet she is now on high flow (1-2 liters.)
During this long struggle, we have had to prepare ourselves on several
different occasions to say our good bye’s to our
baby girl. The one we want to share is nothing less than a miracle. Reese
was having a severe GI bleed. She was
bleeding from the mouth and rectum. This was all fresh blood and we had
two choices as parents. We could watch our
daughter bleed to death or we could transport her to have an emergency
endoscopy as a 3lb baby. She had proved
everyone wrong from the moment she was born and we weren't giving up on
the hope that she would do it again. The
neonatal transport team arrived to take Reese to an alternate hospital
for the endoscopy. In the ambulance on the way
to the hospital where she would have the endoscopy, Reese was still bleeding
from her mouth. We followed in the car
behind the ambulance, and prayed for a miracle. When we arrived and were
briefed by the attending physicians, we
were told that there was a high probability she would not make it. The
minute they sedated her and started the
procedure, there wasn’t any blood to be found. To make a long story
short, there hasn’t been any blood since that day.
The doctors could not medically explain what happened and we feel that
God was telling us then that Reese is here for a
reason and He has a plan.
All of Reese’s major
organs are functioning properly. Reese has received an MRI, 4 echocardiogram’s,
2
lymphscintigraphys, and a ct scan. The results of the lymphscintigraphy
indicate that from the waist up, Reese’s
lymphatic system is not functioning properly. We are not exactly sure
if it’s underdeveloped, if there is a block or if she is
missing something vital in her lymph system. A person’s lymphatic
system is extremely complex and cannot even been
seen with an MRI. We have contacted and consulted with some of the most
respected doctors and specialists
throughout the US and the world. Based on symptoms alone, with no test
available so far to confirm, our best diagnosis
of Reese is possibly congenital generalized lymphangeictasia or congenital
hypoplasia of the lymphatic system, primary to
non-immune hydrops and congenital chylothorax – in layman's terms
a severe disorder of her lymphatic system. There is
no case study or clinical research to follow because there has never been
a premature infant to survive. Currently, Reese
drains from her scalp anywhere from 300-600’s cc’s of fluid
per 24hr period. She loses a tremendous amount of protein,
and requires 75% replacement of components that drain from her scalp.
Her kidney functions fluctuate every day, and
she receives multiple infusions of different types to help maintain metabolic
stability. Reese’s lymphocyte count is
anywhere from 0-7, meaning her immune system is very weak. It is very
similar to an individual with full blown AIDS and
their suppressed immune system. My husband and I purchased a centrifuge
machine and tried to spin down breast milk
for Reese so she could eat normally, but the fat count was still too high
for her body to digest. She currently is eating
portagen, when feeling well. She’s been known to eat a 60ml bottle
in a matter of 20 minutes. With Reese’s immensely
suppressed immune system she has amazingly contracted only 2 infections
and one we are not confident that she truly
had. According to most doctors there is no answer or explanation to this
either. Reese’s current condition will never allow
her to come home where she belongs. Metabolically she is very unstable,
and she will never be able to receive the
amount of albumin she requires.
Yet, we are still filled with
hope. Speaking of moving mountains, this amazing baby girl of ours is
now socially smiling and
cooing with others. Reese is “with it”, which makes her loved
ones only fight for her life even stronger. One day we
hope Reese will know the impact she has had and still has on everyone
that has met her and even the ones that have
not. Reese has compelled me to do this. Her eyes tell the story and we
feel a need to get her story out in hopes that
someone will have experienced this illness or know of someone that can
help us. The many doctors’ that have seen or
discussed her complex illness don’t know how she is alive or how
to fix her. Does she have lymphageictasia? Does she
have a thoracic disorder? How severely disrupted is her lymphatic system?
What tests yet need to be done and what
things can we do to fix her problem? If nothing else, maybe our baby girl
was put on this earth to help other babies with
this horrific illness we don’t know about.
We pray that whoever is reading
this will take this story to heart. This little girl has touched the lives
of countless
people. Her courage and strength have inspired everyone. Think of Reese
as an angel that is here to make a difference
in people’s lives. Wouldn’t it be amazing if the person reading
this could be apart of Reese’s journey?
Thank you for your time, Reese is forever grateful.
Proud parents,
Jeff and Tara Gray |